Hello world.

How do you get out the feelings you have kept buried so far within yourself without creating havoc in your seemingly perfect life?  I ask myself that everyday.  I have denied them, my feelings.  I have ignored and repressed them.  I have lied to myself about them.  Yet, they follow me like a shadow only I can see.  Always over my shoulder, around the corner, breathing in my ear while I sleep.  They frighten me.  The horror and agony they could bring could tear my existence apart.  They can hurt those around me.  Here I sit, keeping them bottled inside, trying to delay the inevitable explosion while they slowing rot away my flesh.  I wish I could release it all!  So badly I want to let it all out, to confide in my spouse, my best friend.  The fear keeps me paralized.  I fear it is a matter of time before I am consumed by myself.